I've seen times change. There are good times, then comes bad n it gets worse and then comes a time when you cant take it anymore. And then come the good times again. This is what life is made of. Its a pudding with all these ingredients put in at a perfect timing. Unfortunately, sometimes we don't see the bigger picture and run after these small things and sometimes we're stupid enough not to notice the wonderful things that are around us when we keep running at what seems far ahead. But its all a part of growing up. The things that have happened in a past few days have made me question myself, made me stand and evaluate what I've been n done. But then I realise its always been so. I've always been astounded by what life made me see. I've been doing it ever since I started walking.
The first time I caught a ball in a cricket match,
the first time I became the best student in my school,
the first time I had a girlfriend,
the first time I lied at home to go out with friends,
the first time I celebrated my birthday at a restuarant,
the first time I celebrated my birthday with Beer,
the first time I helped someone get his girl,
the first time I went to a rock concert,
the first time I took a good picture and surprised myself,
the first time I broke my heart,
the first time I got into a fight with friends,
the first time I failed in an exam,
the first time I got caught smoking.
There always have been such times that I felt my life cannot go anywhere good, times when I've thought of quitting my life. But hanging on is the best skilled I've gathered in all my years of existence. I hung on, without knowing what to do. And then, without any notice came in some of the best days of my life. It sucked then, but now when I think of it, without the tragedy, my life would be meaningless. As is said in a movie I cant remember "The bad things always show you the good things you weren't paying any attention to." True to the word it is.
If I've got anything out of the miseries in life, its strength. Falling down isn't as bad, cuz u stand up sometime or the other and when you do, you start enjoying the warm sunrays which used to hurt you before. You realise the sun has always been the same, its you who had grown bad.
I'm not old enough to know everything. A lot has happened, a hell of a lot. But I guess I haven't learned all my lessons yet. Life still has some books for me to read. I may not be ready for any of it yet, but thats the trick I guess. I've still got a lot of falls to make, so I can rise higher yet. Years have passed, have grown a lot but I'm still not done with. I'm still the confused person, not knowing what to do or where to go. Yes the places have changed, so have the people, a lot older a lot stronger, but the song remains the same.
